Let’s start now. It’s okay.
I know you’ve been sad for so many days.
Saying goodbye, to what you deserved.
Acknowledging what was a broken childhood.
Tears are healthy, and the fear is real.
I know it is shocking, to finally feel.
You deserved better, you deserved to be loved.
You deserved to be heard. You deserved to be hugged.
You deserved to come first, to be nourished when fed.
To read books together, before going to bed.
You deserved to be nurtured, to receive a warm smile.
You deserved to be known. To be yourself as a child.
For so long now, you’ve been running away.
It’s time to come home now, today is the day.
I welcome you with adoration,
With open arms and admiration.
All those things, that you deserved,
I’ll give you now, my darling girl.
Shame and guilt
This is what
You did to me
Are you happy?
Someone loves you
Do you care?
The gift ungiven
To keep it hidden.
Forget the string
You’ve kept me on
Let me go
I’m nearly gone.
It’s my fault
I make you do it
I must hate myself
To put me through it.
Twirl it back
And wind it in
Enchantment in their mother’s hands,
On the little box their eyes did land.
Unknown noises from inside
When opened showed big yellow eyes.
As privileged as a girl could be,
“A little kitten just for me?”
A knowing soul with jet black fur,
Happiness to hear him purr.
At night a ‘scratch, scratch’ at my door,
He’d cross the room on little paws,
On my bed he’d set up camp,
My best friend was little Scamp.
We never got to say goodbye,
And when I heard I didn’t cry.
It must have been a painful day,
When suddenly we went away.
Memories of your little face,
Make the world a safer place.
Thank you Scamp, bestest friend,
I wish I’d been there till the end.